Saturday, November 13, 2010

Midlife Meltdown: Randomly Reminiscing

Me getting caked on my 21st Birthday


I'll be 24 on the 23rd. Almost 25. Halfway to 50. I'm getting old.

I've never been a follower. Never really tried to be a leader either. I was always just me. The goofy girl who loved to write poems... play basketball... and sleep. But I've changed. Life moved on and I grew up. This ex tomboy who can't seem to master how to walk in heels still opts to wear jeans and screen tees (or spring tees as my bestie Ash likes to call them) became a woman. A woman that some people may no longer recognize. When I look in the mirror while brushing my teeth or attempting to style my now natural hair, I see someone new every single day.

I procrastinate often. Still too shy to speak in front of large crowds... but I long to be heard.

2010 has been quite a reflective year for me. I can't pinpoint what changed me, but I'm different. I feel like another me... if that makes sense.

I've never been arrested.
Never smoked a cigarette... cigar... weed/reefer/blunt/joint etc. (second hand highs don't count)
No tickets.
No babies.

I have a high school diploma AND a bachelor's degree. Two parents who are still together. Happily married. A younger brother who looks up to me...

"They ask me bout pressure/They wanna see my pipe burst."--J.Cole

I lead by example.

I don't watch the news. I read it. I've realized that I can't fix all that's broken... and this world is mighty torn. I step over the fragments to find my way. I'm almost there.

I have a strong desire to inspire.

I can.

I must.

I will.

It doesn't matter how old I am.

My age won't kill the thrill.

*Music is Life... Poetry is Love*

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Review: For Colored Girls

For Colored Girls is based on Ntozake Shange's "choreopoem", For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide When the Rainbow is Enuf, a collection of 20 poems made famous by her 1975 stage play of the same name. The poems collectively divulge the extremities of conditions that colored women endure with great valor.

Tyler Perry masterfully weaves together the story of eight displaced women who have suffered through various painful circumstances at the hands of careless, inconsiderate, vindictive men. The historic all black cast includes: Kimberly Elise, Janet Jackson, Loretta Devine, Thandie Newton, Phylicia Rashad, Anika Noni Rose, Whoopi Goldberg and Kerry Washington.

For Colored Girls is an excruciatingly revealing film that explicates the effect(s) of recurring themes such as violence, betrayal, infidelity, love and fear.

Poetry is an intercoastal language that undoubtedly expresses hidden creative truths. The movie drew much criticism for the realm of difficulty that blending the poems would create, a feat that Perry overcame quite remarkably. The poems are what make this movie so emotionally spectacular. Each woman manifests her own individual desire(s) and distress while reciting some of Shange's poems as soliloquies and monologues with a tang of Spoken Word flavor in mid conversation. Viewers are able to freely witness the fight in these women as they attempt to heal their wounds with words.

For Colored Girls is a must-see... especially for African American women who have lost all hope in a black and white world with no pot of gold waiting at the end of their rainbow.

Notable quotes:

"Ever since I realized there was someone called a colored girl, an evil woman, a b*tch or a nag, I've been trying not to be that."

"You can't love somebody with that much hurt in them."

"Being alive and being a woman, that's all I've got. Being colored is a metaphysical dilemma I haven't conquered yet."

*Music is Life... Poetry is Love*